I spent a very long time writing that piece last night and I need to get to bed earlier tonight, so just a reflection on that experience right now...  It was nerve-wracking!  I rewrote the opening paragraph seven times... I was very anxious and panicky trying to write it.  But once I got into it, … Continue reading Reflection

Impostor Syndrome

I have two people in my family who are professional artists (painters).  One of them is... very average (she makes paintings that I could recreate, and I am absolutely not competent in visual arts).  One of them is extremely talented (she makes paintings I couldn't even begin to understand the skills behind and feel I … Continue reading Impostor Syndrome


I'm having a less than easy night.  It's not terrible - certainly not by the bar set by multiple nights this summer - but not... great. I think it's depression, or at least the leading edge of a depression front. Sir thinks that possibly my feeling is akin to burnout (and potentially that's enough to … Continue reading Output

Empty – SFD

"I tried to think about photography today, I looked for things on our walk." Devin looks at me.  "That's good." He drags out the second word, questioning, waiting for the rest. "I couldn't.  Nothing was... good." He twists his mouth slightly in sympathy.  And Sir, standing slightly behind me, brushes my hair back behind my … Continue reading Empty – SFD