For someone's birthday... since she wants to know... and because I keep fading to black... Sigh. Happy birthday! This is the second half of Manic. *** The fog of dreams gives way to a replay of last night across the back of my eyelids. I groan and throw my arm across my eyes. It does … Continue reading Manic – Part 2 – SFD
I saw this today on Pinterest. Sometimes it seems that when things are at their darkest, somehow something I need to hear falls in my lap. At least that would be a nice thing to believe about the universe, wouldn't it?
I have said it so many times... I picture myself Nixon-esque in my denial. And maybe equally dishonest... Although not as intentionally as he was. I am not a switch. But maybe I am. Why should the thought of it terrify me? Why is it bad? K is a switch and I respect the crap … Continue reading I am not a switch…
Some times that decision is easier than others. Some times you can look at a situation and it rips your heart out of your chest but you know there is, absolutely, without a doubt, no other course of action but to end it all... Other times... there is doubt. Those are the bitch of a … Continue reading Euthanasia
I cried in therapy today. Only a little. I didn't think I could... I have this fear that if I let the pain too close it will break through the dam and it will be a tsunami of destruction, that I will never be able to pull it back again. But I let it out … Continue reading Finding myself again
As my former partner and I were, today, trying to stumble our way through one of our first conversations since a painful and at times ugly parting of our romantic connection, his son was pouting over being denied (justifiably!) a particular sugary treat. Eventually the four-year-old crawled onto the bed beside his father and told … Continue reading Child Wisdom
Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. ~Paul Boese