Today is better.  Sir stepped things up today and it helped. The dishes are done and put away.  The laundry is done and put away.  The kitchen is clean.  The house is swept.  The fridge has food in it for the week.  I finished all of my school work that I needed done for tomorrow. … Continue reading Ease

Bad Week

It's Friday night.  Sir came home a little while ago with K and J.  I got sent upstairs to do my blog.  I'm irritated about that.  And I'm irritated at the power dynamic in the house right now.  I'm trying to tell myself that I'm projecting because I'm pissed off about a power dynamic at … Continue reading Bad Week

Out of Place

Depression is trying to grab hold of me again today, so I'm fighting it... with all the energy that hasn't already been sucked into depression. So... mostly I'm sitting here resisting curling up in front of the TV. Hooah! I had a pretty busy week for a summer week when I'm not working, and I … Continue reading Out of Place


I survived the night, as did our relationship.  I probably should be old enough to know that it will, and not indulge myself in emotion and drama.  But somehow, sometimes, things just... sometimes perspective fails and it's just... universally terrible. I'm tired.  Still.  I feel beaten.  Like I was in an emotional car wreck, and … Continue reading Bruised

Ordinary Evening

So, two nights ago I wrote a technical manual about my relationship and the ways in which it is probably wildly different from the majority of people in relationships.  And I'll write more about those specific differences in more detail in future posts.  But, tonight, I was thinking that despite the underlying framework of our … Continue reading Ordinary Evening