So this evening my BFF texted me (and I hopefully won't share anything she doesn't want shared...) Basically she just appreciated that I share on my blog but didn't want to feel one-sided (sharing in our relationship) and shared some things in her life and thinking with me, and it was so... awesome... And we … Continue reading Friendship
I had a good day! I know, right? About damn time! So, first I had brunch in Boulder with my mom and my brother. Nobody said anything stupid and pissed-off making. And then we even went and shopped in Peppercorn (which is a stupid expensive awesome quirky housewares shop). I love Peppercorn! Then I came … Continue reading The Broken Ones
So... my WordPress account was hacked and infected with malware. This led to it being shut down until I could correct the problem. I received the notification about a month ago and didn't do anything about it (Sir says we'll be discussing that later...) but I figured it wasn't as if anybody was going to … Continue reading Hacked!
I realize it's been over a year since I posted here. I've been busy. I have a new job, though it's now a year old. Today was the last day of the year, it's summer break. I'm having a rough night from the drop... and from anxiety. But it's happy anxiety in some ways. I … Continue reading End of an Era
K skyped with me this afternoon briefly. When they can get into the city they get on skype, otherwise they email every week, which is nice, but sometimes it just feels like they're so far away... Which they ARE. I have been trying to keep the happy face on because... I don't want them to … Continue reading He’s not your friend.
I got good news today. About time, huh? Cause we all know the universe OWES us and life is just one big math equation that eventually has to even out on both sides, right? Yeah... It doesn't mean anything. It just is. I got good news today. Super news, actually. Jump up and down and … Continue reading Good News Sadness
I cried in therapy today. Only a little. I didn't think I could... I have this fear that if I let the pain too close it will break through the dam and it will be a tsunami of destruction, that I will never be able to pull it back again. But I let it out … Continue reading Finding myself again
I'm sad tonight. Not sad like a few nights ago, not sobbing sad, just quietly, tiredly sad. It's starting to break all of us. Tonight I watched a grown man crumble, literally, his legs give out beneath him, fall to the ground on his knees and sob those wrenching sobs that steal your breath and … Continue reading Superstitions
These are the words of my best friend who has acute leukemia for the third time. He gave me permission to translate his words to English and to share them here. ~~ When Death offers you the grace of warning, do you waste the time you're gifted in misery, agony, suffering, grieving, and painful denial? … Continue reading Dying
The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing... not healing, not curing... that is a friend who cares. ~ Henri Nouwen