Loneliness

I feel like... since I've been doing this "write every day, what a brilliant idea!" thing... I've felt, overall, a lot more... emotional upheaval, directly related to posting here.  I have emotional upheaval all the time for other reasons, obviously, but there's a particular flavor that is... this... daily writing. And it isn't the DOING …

Visitors

After I post, I usually go and check my blog to make sure the post looks the way I want (and because I'm such a good writer, I revise AFTER I publish...)  And I sometimes notice my revolver map (lower right hand side) and see other people blinking on the map.  Tonight there are two …

A Shadow Life

So...  I talk about it often but never do it.  I probably should try NOT talking about it and ACTUALLY doing it... but... baby steps. I'm going to try to write more.  Like...  Every day.  For a year.  I don't know why I decided to do this.  It did lead to an interesting conversation with …

Perspectives

I had a rough day yesterday.  I made some poor choices about caring for myself and my body.  Last night I was punished for those choices.  This morning I was... not punished really, because it wasn't for something I did wrong, but... I was punished.  Because I can't use better words than that because I …

For those keeping track…

Sorry to everybody I owe emails to, and comments I haven't responded to. I had a better day today.  Really doing quite a lot better.  Then literally...six minutes ago...everything crashed. Maybe I can argue that my brain is still weak and while it maintained for most of the day, it is tired and has let …

Grief – Anaphora

Grief Grief Grief is shards of ice flaying my skin. Grief is a cold anchor tearing at my heart. Grief is a heavy shadow, curling round my spine. Grief is a keening shriek scraping on my ribs. Grief is cold tar thick in heavy limbs. Grief is razor claws shredding my lungs. Grief is frozen …

Links and Sorrow

I'm struggling.  Some days I think I have hope, I feel the light, I know things will hurt and I also know I will survive and I will live and eventually I will thrive again. Then I have days... like today... when I can't seem to stop crying.  I hurt.  Everywhere.  I hurt, I hurt, …

Quote of the Day – August 11, 2012

There is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. ~ Winnie the Pooh

Quote of the Day – August 6, 2012

I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being. ~Hafiz of Persia